“I am the Bad Wolf. I create myself.” -Rose Tyler/Bad Wolf, Doctor Who
Oh my dear family. I get it. I really, truly, and honestly get it now. It must seem like your daughter is all over the map. Like she doesn’t have a clear direction or any type of goals in mind.
It must make me look like I bounce around from one thing to the next. That I cannot commit to anything. (Which must mean the fact that I’ve been married for 6 years now a miraculous act in and of itself.) And the field that I chose to pursue in college and bounce around the United States for isn’t traditional by any means.
And that’s where things are confusing for me. It should be the easiest thing for you to see, since I am the daughter of a musician and a painter. Sure, dad became an electrician and mom worked as a secretary for many years, that never changed the fact that you both are creative people. You never stopped making music or painting. You’re both.
Your jobs never defined you to me.
In Stardust, there is a scene where Yvaine and Tristan are being held by pirates and she tells him about shop boys and boys that work in shops.
“If there’s one thing I’ve learned about all my year watching Earth, is that people aren’t what they may seem. There are shop boys, and there are boys who just happen to work in a shop for the time being.”
It’s our passions that make us who we are and there are no limits to what we can do.
My dear parents, your daughter isn’t lost. She’s creative. She is a writer. A creator. An artist. She’s so many things, just like you are, but the projects I’ve taken on, the things I’ve chosen to surround myself with in my life utilize all those bits of me. I tried putting them on a shelf and that was the silliest thing I could have ever done.
I know that you won’t ever fully understand what I do for a living. Heck, I break it down to its simplest form just so I can understand what I’m doing some days because even I have trouble wrapping my head around the fact this job exists! (I usually tell people I lock myself in a room most of the day and talk to myself when I say I’m a working voice artist.) My job lets me do a lot of things for a lot of different projects from explaining how to work a brand-new piece of software, to talking about clothes and great sales at retail outlets across the country, talking about musicians and music tracks on a radio station in Mississippi, or even recording High School teens and creating spell binding audio clips for their fall musical. Every day is different. Every day is challenging.
Some days I’m writing commercials for radio stations. Other days I’m doing paperwork at radio stations. I’ve discovered I have a wide range of talents that slide into different positions and roles when need be. Some days it pays all the bills. Some days it comes up a little short. Working for yourself and running your own business, you have days like that. For the most part, I don’t do too bad.
I know I’m insanely blessed to have married a guy that was enthralled by my passion. It’s possible I caught his attention with my voice, a bit like Ariel from The Little Mermaid, but he admits he was pretty hooked by how enthused I can get over the little things. The things I enjoy. The things I love. When I get carried away, sometimes I tend to take others with me.
And that’s what creative people do. We’re a little funny that way.
And it’s perfectly okay to be that way.
It’s not okay to tell yourself you’re not an artist because your work doesn’t look like someone else’s or because someone is better than you. The only one you’re in competition with is yourself. That’s how you get better. Admire others. Let them inspire you. And then let your creativity flow.
In the last 30 days or so, I found myself looking up definitions of writers and authors. Being published wasn’t a must have to be a writer, but if I must have that footnote to be a writer in my parent’s eyes, done. I’ve written commercials that were broadcast quality and played in several markets across the nation.
Seriously though, I’m a writer because I’m writing. That was incredibly empowering to me to make that realization. And that is when the community of friends around me rejoiced and slapped me on the back calling out “FINALLY! SHE GETS IT!”
“You’re an artist type.”
“You’re a storyteller.”
I happen to work as a receptionist in my spare time, when I’m not running a Voice Over Business or being a Disc Jockey in a different part of the nation.
I look flighty because there are so many things I want to do. So many things that grab my attention that I want to learn and experiment with. I was never content with the idea of knowing what you wanted to be by the time you graduate High School or before because there is so much out in the world to learn and explore!
Now that I’ve figured out who I am, or at least have a better idea about it, I’ve realized that what I actually have on my hands and in my head is a Creative Bucket List.
-Write the Reluctant Adventurer series.
-Turn Reluctant Adventurer into a Podcast Drama Series for younger audiences.
-Write and publish a book. Even if it is just in e-reader format.
-Keep a blog where I can be my geeky self with games, music, movies, books, and fantasy writing.
-Learn to Sew
-Sew aprons and dresses
-Learn to Crochet and make some cute little animals or toys
-Learn to knit fearlessly and make a sweater or more vests!
-Photograph Tattoos. (“The Story I tell…” series featuring the stories behind the tattoos and the tattoos themselves.)
-Have a successful Patreon whether it’s writing or photography.
-If I like photography, sell a picture!
-Photograph things in a way that shows that there is beauty all around us.
-Voice a video game character.
-Take acting classes.
-Be comfortable with character voices.
These are the things I’m interested in. These are the things that I wonder if I would like them or not. What’s great is I can do all of this and more because there isn’t anything to stop me. Aside from owning a camera, but hey, I can even cross that bridge eventually!
It’s a beautiful thing realizing that the only one shutting the doors is yourself. But you can always open them again.
They might be a tad silly to others that just don’t get it, but this list, it’s right up there with the one my husband and I have. While ours consists of cities we wish to visit, museums we want to see, hiking and camping trips we’d love to take…these lists are the same. They’re aspirations that pull at your soul.
How about you? What’s on your list? Are you going start working on crossing any of them off? Let me know and leave a comment below!